Hello. I was in Ballet ( tap and Jazz) from the age of 3 or 4 untill I was 12, then I quit, mainly because I didn't have any friends in class and I was picked on and bullied all those years by the girls I was with. Now I find it very foolish that I quit, because I miss dance SO MUCH. I don't care about what they do, or what they say, I want to dance again, but my Mom will not let me join again. She is letting me teach myself though, if I can find a way. I am almost 14 now, just in a few months. It hasn't even been two years since I quit, maybe a year or less, but I have forgoten so much.

How can I do this? Do you think a video could do the trick? Even a book.

I was also thinking of going on Pointe, but I don't know my shoe size, and I don't know how! I have spoken to my old Ballet teacher, and he has said that I am old enough.

Do you think it is possible to teach myself to go on Pointe. I have heard it is from a few people, but I know that gossip sometimes is a lie.

Please help. I miss dance so much!

and then you can operate on your own feet with a kitchen knife and no anesthetic to fix the mess you've made of them...

First of all, even soft shoe technique can never be learned from a book or a video. Unlike ballroom, where you can pick up patterns easily off a video if you know the background, in ballet, there is no "pattern" even the simplest plie will be terribly wrong without a teacher to correct you. You may think you know what you are doing, but without a teacher, you will just be doing the step horribly wrong, I guarantee you. Secondly, NEVER ever go on pointe without a certified teacher's instruction. You do not know what you are doing. You will hurt yourself. There is no faking in pointe work. I'm sorry, I have been a ballerina for 6 years, and I know it is the one thing you cannot even begin to teach yourself. Don't even try. If your mom knew what was best for you she would enroll you in a class or not let you dance at all.

Thank you guys so much! I'm glad I asked this before I ruined my feet. So, it's best that I shouldn't teach myself, and i'm not allowed to go back to class, do I just forget about it? Ballet was my life when I was little. I can't forget about it, it's to hard . There has to be some way right? I miss it too much.